Night seeing..

I just saw a little girl doing night job, collecting plastics and garbage cans, helping her mom.
They rode on what is known as tricycle/rickshaw, she jumped out of it every time she found plastic bags and bottles, and at one chance playing a trick with a rabbit she met in front of a house while I walked watching her with a burger wrapped on my hand. It suddenly made me feel bad, like somebody's watching me stealing something. It's not like I'm stealing something nor planning to do it. It's just not right. She was out on the dirty street, passed her bed time, and I was out searching for bunch of carbohydrate to comfort my stomach (I have my dinner, so it's an extra food)..

I'm home with this thing crossed my mind... thinking how lucky I am, no disturbance on my sleeping at night, except I'm making it up.. while out there, a child (many I believe, gosh just realized it) are working still, wondering if ever get a rest. What a life...

Nothing..

Not in the good mood to write...
been watching a movie, have finished two actually.. and that sucks. I end up wanting more, and it's just not right. My mind is not thinking good things lately, with loads of that bunch of report, I supposed to have a busy week. But it's not, which make me a little bit worried. Deadline is on its way..
Whats the meaning of being creative anyway, having your days spending doing something you like or finalizing all those things you are forced to do?
I've been with this many thoughts lately. Dont like myself this time, doing crap things.. and keep that important things behind.
I am always have this feeling, me quit the job.. starting to do things I'd like to do, pursuing the dreams I dreamed.. which surely will take on some consequences. Not all bad consequences though.. But this doubts come over and weaken my spirit..
*sigh*
Really hope for a fruitful time.. to contemplate, and I might come up with good things to do.